XII
I will simply tell you, without delay, in order that you may be able to read what follows in peace of mind, that Johannes and Marjon became husband and wife ere the ending of the story. But at the time the old skipper pointed out to them a comfortable sleeping-corner in the deck-house of the long Rhine-boat, they had not the least idea of it. Being very tired, they were soon lying, like two brothers, in deep sleep, with Keesje, now warm and contented, between them.
When it grew light, the whole world seemed to have vanished. Johannes had been wakened by the rattling of the anchor-chains, and when he looked out, he saw on all sides nothing but white, foggy light; no sky, no shore—only, just under the little windows, the yellow river current. But he heard the striking of the town clocks, and even the crowing of cocks. Therefore the world was still there, as fine as ever, only hidden away under a thick white veil.
The boats lay still, for they could not be navigated. So long as the waters of the Rhine could not be seen frothing about the anchor-chains, so long must they wait for a chance to know the points of the compass. Thus they remained for hours in the still, thick white light, listening to the muffled sounds of the town coming from the shore.
The two children ran back and forth over the long, long vessel, and had a fine time. They had already become good friends of the skipper, especially since he had learned that they could pay for their passage. They ate their bread and sausage, peering into the fog in suspense, for fear that Lorum and the dark woman might be coming in a boat to overtake them. They knew that they could not yet be very far away from their last camping-place.
At last the mists grew thinner and thinner, and fled from before the shining face of the sun; and, although the earth still remained hidden beneath swirling white, up above began to appear the glorious blue.
And this was the beginning of a fine day for Johannes.
Sighing and groaning, as if with great reluctance, the tugboat began again its toilful course up the stream. The still, summer day was warm, the wide expanse of water sparkled in the sun, and on both sides the shores were gliding gently by—their grey-green reeds, and willows and poplars, all fresh and dewy, peeping through the fog.
Johannes lay on the deck, gazing at land and water, while Marjon sat beside him. Keesje amused himself with the tackle rope, chuckling with satisfaction every now and then, as he sprang back and forth, with a serious look, after a flitting bird or insect.
“Marjon,” said Johannes, “how did you know so certainly yesterday that there was nothing to be afraid of?”
“Some one watches over me,” said Marjon.
“Who?” asked Johannes.
“Father.”
Johannes looked at her, and asked, softly:
“Do you mean your own father?”
But Marjon made a slight movement of her head toward the green earth, the flowing water, the blue sky and the sunshine, and said, with peculiar significance, as if now it was quite clear to her:
“No! I mean The Father.”
“The Father Markus speaks about?”
“Yes. Of course,” said Marjon.
Johannes was silent a while, gazing at the rapid flow of the water, and the slower and slower course of things according to their distance in the rear. His head was full of ideas, each one eager for utterance. But it is delightful to lie thus and view a passing country spread out under the clear light—letting the thoughts come very calmly, and selecting carefully those worthy of being clad in speech. Many are too tender and sensitive to be accorded that honor, but yet they may not be meanest ones.
Johannes first selected a stray thought.
“Is that your own idea?” he asked. Marjon was not quick with an answer, herself, this time.
“My own? No. Markus told me it. But I knew it myself, though. I knew it, but he said it. He drew it out of me. I remember everything he says—everything—even although I don’t catch on.”
“Is there any good in that?” asked Johannes, thoughtlessly.
Marjon looked at him disdainfully, and said:
“Jimminy! You’re just like Kees. He doesn’t know either that he can do more with a quarter than with a cent. When I got my first quarter, I didn’t catch on, either, but then I noticed that I could get a lot more candy with it than with a cent. Then I knew better what to do. So now I treasure the things Markus has said—all of them.”
“Do you think as much of him as I do?” asked Johannes.
“More,” said Marjon.
“That cannot be.”
Then there was another long pause. The boat was not in a hurry, neither was the sun, and the broad stream made even less haste. And so the children, as well, took plenty of time in their talking.
“Yes, but you see,” Johannes began again, “when people speak of our Father, they mean God, and God is....”
What was it again, that Windekind had said about God? The thought came to him, and clothed in the old terms. But Johannes hesitated. The terms were surely not attractive.
“What is God, now?” asked Marjon.
The old jargon must be used. There was nothing better.
“... An oil-lamp, where the flies stick fast.”
Marjon whistled—a shrill whistle of authority—a circus-command. Keesje, who was sitting on the foremast, thoughtfully inspecting his outstretched hind foot, started up at once, and came sliding down the steel cable, in dutiful haste.
“Here, Kees! Attention!”
Kees grumbled assent, and was instantly on the alert, for he was well drilled. His sharp little brown eyes scarcely strayed for one second away from the face of his mistress.
“The young gentleman here says he knows what God is. Do you know?”
Keesje shook his head quickly, showing all his sharp little white teeth in a grin. One would have said he was laughing, but his small eyes peered as seriously as ever from Marjon’s mouth to her hand. There was nothing to laugh at. He must pay attention. That was clear. Goodies were bound to follow—or blows.
But Marjon laughed loudly.
“Here, Kees! Good Kees!”
And then he had the dainties, and soon was up on the mast, smacking aloud as he feasted.
The result of this affront was quite unexpected to Marjon. Johannes, who had been lying prone on the deck, with his chin in his hands, gazed sadly for a while at the horizon, and then hid his face in his folded arms, his body shaking with sobs.
“Stop now, Jo; you’re silly! Cry for that!” said Marjon, half frightened, trying to pull his arms away from his face. But Johannes shook his head.
“Hush! Let me think,” said he.
Marjon gave him about a quarter of an hour, and then she spoke, gently and kindly, as if to comfort him:
“I know what you wanted to say, dear Jo. That’s the reason, too, why I always speak of The Father. I understand that the best; because, you see, I never knew my earthly father, but he must have been much better than other fathers.”
“Why?” asked Johannes.
“Because I am much better than all those people round about me, and better than that common, dark woman who had another father.”
Marjon said this quite simply, thinking it to be so. She said it in a modest manner, while feeling that it was something which ought to be spoken.
“Not that I have been so very good. Oh, no! But yet I have been better than the others, and that was because of the father; for my mother, too, was only a member of a troupe. And now it is so lovely that I can say ‘Father’ just as Markus does!”
Johannes looked at her, with the sadness still in his eyes.
“Yes, but all the meanness, the ugliness, and the sorrow that our Father permits! First, He launches us into the world, helpless and ignorant, without telling us anything. And then, when we do wrong because we know no better, we are punished, Is that fatherly?”
But Marjon said:
“Did you fancy it was not? Kees gets punished, too, so he will learn. And now that he is clever and well taught he gets hardly any blows—only tid-bits. Isn’t that so, Kees?”
“But, Marjon, did you not tell me how you found Kees—shy, thin, and mangy—his coat all spoiled with hunger and beatings; and how he has remained timid ever since, because a couple of rascally boys had mistreated him?”
Marjon nodded, and said:
“There are rascals, and deucedly wicked boys, and very likely there is a Devil, also; but I am my Father’s child and not afraid of Him, nor what He may do with me.”
“But if He makes you ill, and lets you be ill-treated? If He lets you do wrong, and then leaves you to cry about it? And if He makes you foolish?”
Keesje was coming down from the mast, very softly and deliberately. With his black, dirty little hands he cautiously and hesitatingly touched the boy’s clothes that Marjon was wearing. He wanted to go to sleep, and had been used to a soft lap. But his mistress took him up, and hid him in her jacket. Then he yawned contentedly, like a little old man, and closed his pale eyelids in sleep—his little face looking very pious with its eyebrows raised in a saintly arch. Marjon said:
“If I should go and ill-treat Keesje, he would make a great fuss about it, but still he would stay with me.”
“Yes; but he would do the same with a common tramp,” said Johannes.
Marjon shook her head, doubtfully.
“Kees is rather stupid—much more so than you or I, but yet not altogether stupid. He well knows who means to treat him rightly. He knows well that I do not ill-treat him for my own pleasure. And you see, Jo, I know certainly, ever so certainly—that my Father will not ill-treat me without a reason.”
Johannes pressed her hand, and asked passionately:
“How do you know that? How do you know?”
Marjon smiled, and gave him a gentle look.
“Exactly as I know you to be a good boy—one who does not lie. I can tell that about you in various ways I could not explain—by one thing and another. So, too, I can see that my Father means well by me. By the flowers, the clouds, the sparkling water. Sometimes it makes me cry—it is so plain.”
Then Johannes remembered how he had once been taught to pray, and his troubled thoughts grew calmer. Yet he could not refrain from asking—because he had been so much with Pluizer:
“Why might not that be a cheat?”
Suddenly Keesje waked up and looked behind him at Johannes, in a frightened way.
“Ah, there you are!” exclaimed Marjon, impatiently. “That’s exactly as if you asked why the summer might not perchance be the winter. You can ask that, any time. I know my Father just for the very reason that He does not deceive. If Markus was only here he would give it to you!”
“Yes, if he was only here!” repeated Johannes, not appearing to be afraid of what Markus might do to him.
Then in a milder way, Marjon proceeded:
“Do you know what Markus says, Jo? When the Devil stands before God, his heart is pierced by genuine trust.”
“Should I trust the Devil, then?” asked Johannes.
“Well, no! How could that be? Nobody can do that. You must trust the Father alone. But even if you are so unlucky as to see the Devil before you see the Father, that makes no difference, for he has no chance against sincere trust. That upsets his plans, and at the same time pleases the Father.”
“Oh, Marjon! Marjon!” said Johannes, clasping his hands together in his deep emotion. She smiled brightly and said:
“Now you see that was a quarter out of my savings-box!”
Really, it was a very happy day for Johannes. He saw great, white, piled-up clouds, tall trees in the light of the rising sun, still houses on the river-banks, and the rushing stream—with violet and gold sparkling in the broad bends—ever flowing through a fruitful, verdant country; and over all, the deep, deep blue—and he whispered: “Father—Father!” In an instant, he suddenly comprehended all the things he saw as splendid, glorious Thoughts of the Father, which had always been his to observe, but only now to be wholly understood. The Father said all this to him, as a solemn admonition that He it was—pure and true, eternally guarding, ever waiting and accessible, behind the unlovely and the deceitful.
“Will you always stay with me, Marjon?” he asked earnestly.
“Yes, Jo, that I will. And you with me?”
Then Little Johannes intrepidly gave his promise, as if he really knew what the future held for him, and as if he had power over his entire unknown existence.
“Yes, dear Marjon, I will never leave you again. I promise you. We remain together, but as friends. Do you agree? No foolishness!”
“Very well, Jo. As you like,” said Marjon. After that they were very still.