IV
Pagliacci was to be followed as usual by “Cavalleria.” It was the swan song of the opera season.
In a part that he acted as well as he sang, Caruso had been permitted finally to retire, wringing wet, to his dressing room. With all the dignity of a man of genuine feeling and sensitiveness he had taken call after call on the fall of the curtain and stood bent almost double before the increasing breakers of applause. Once more he had done his best in a role which demanded everything that he had of voice and passion, comedy and tragedy. Once more, although his soul was with his comrades in battle, he had played the fool and broken his heart for the benefit of his good friends in front.
In her box on the first tier Mrs. Cooper Jekyll, in a dress imaginatively designed to display a considerable quantity of her figure, was surrounded by a party which attracted many glasses. Alice Palgrave was there, pretty and scrupulously neat, even perhaps a little prim, her pearls as big as marbles. Mrs. Alan Hosack made a most effective picture with her black hair and white skin in a geranium-colored frock—a Van Beers study to the life. Mrs. Noel d’Oyly lent an air of opulence to the box, being one of those lovely but all too ample women who, while compelling admiration, dispel intimacy. Joan, a young daffodil, sat bolt upright among them, with diamonds glistening in her hair like dew. Of the four men, Gilbert Palgrave, standing where he could be seen, might have been an illustration by Du Maurier of one of Ouida’s impossible guardsmen. He made the other three, all of the extraordinary ordinary type, appear fifty per cent, more manly than they really were—the young old Hosack with his groomlike face and immaculate clothes, the burly Howard Cannon, who retained a walrus mustache in the face of persistent chaff, and Noel d’Oyly, who when seen with his Junoesque wife made the gravest naturalists laugh at the thought of the love manners of the male and female spider.
Turning her chair round, Alice touched Joan’s arm. “Will you do something for me?” she asked.
Joan looked at her with a smile of disturbing frankness. “It all depends whether it will upset any of my plans,” she said.
“I wouldn’t have asked you if I had thought that.”
Joan laughed. “You’ve been studying my character, Alice.”
“I did that at school, my dear.” Mrs. Palgrave spoke lightly, but it was plain to see that there was something on her mind. “Don’t go out to supper with Howard Cannon. Come back with me. I want to talk to you. Will you?”
Joan had recently danced in Cannon’s huge studio-apartment and been oppressed by its Gulliveresque atmosphere, and she had just come from the Fifth Avenue house of the Hosack family, where a characteristically dignified dinner had got on her nerves. Gilbert, she knew, was engaged to play roulette at the club, and none of her other new men friends was available for dancing. She hadn’t seen anything of Martin for several days. She could easily oblige Alice under the circumstances.
So she said: “Yes, of course I will—just to prove how very little you really know about me.”
“Thank you,” said Alice. “I’ll say that I have a headache and that you’re coming home with me. Don’t be talked out of it.”
A puzzled expression came into Joan’s eyes, and she turned her shoulder to Palgrave, who was giving her his most amorous glances. “It doesn’t matter,” she said, “but I notice that you are all beginning to treat me like a sort of moral weathercock. I wonder why?” She gave no more thought to the matter which just for the most fleeting moment had rather piqued her, but sat drinking in the music of Mascagni’s immortal opera entirely ignoring the fact that Palgrave’s face was within an inch of her shoulder and that Alan Hosack, on her other side, was whispering heavy compliments.
Alice sat back and looked anxiously from the face of the girl who had been her closest friend at school to that of the man to whom she had given all her heart. In spite of the fact that she had been married a year and had taken her place in the comparatively small set which made up New York society, Mrs. Palgrave was an optimist. As a fiction-fed girl she had expected, with a thrill of excitement, that after marriage she would find herself in a whirlpool of careless and extravagant people who made their own elastic code of morals and played ducks and drakes with the Commandments. She had accepted as a fact the novelist-playwright contention that society was synonymous with flippancy, selfishness and unchastity, and that the possession of money and leisure necessarily undermined all that was excellent in human nature. Perhaps a little to her disappointment, she had soon discovered how grotesque and ignorant this play-and-book idea was. She had returned from her honeymoon in November of the first year of the war and had been astonished to find that nearly all the well-known women whose names, in the public imagination, were associated with decadence and irresponsibility, were as a matter of fact devoted to Red Cross work and allied war charities; that the majority of the men who were popularly supposed to be killing time with ingenious wickedness worked as hard as the average downtown merchant, and that even the debutantes newly burst upon the world had, for the most part, banded themselves together as a junior war-relief society and were turning out weekly an immense number of bandages for the wounded soldiers of France and England. Young men of high and gallant spirit, who bore the old names of New York, had disappeared without a line of publicity—to be heard of later as members of the already famous Escadrille or as ambulance workers on the Western front. Beautiful girls had slipped quietly away from their usual haunts, touched by a deep and rare emotion, to work in Allied hospitals three thousand miles and more away—if not as full-blown nurses, then as scullery maids or motor drivers.
There were, of course, the Oldershaws and the Marie Littlejohns and the Christine Hurleys and the rest. Alice had met and watched them throwing themselves against any bright light like all silly moths. And there were the girls like Joan, newly released from the exotic atmosphere of those fashionable finishing schools which no sane country should permit. But even these wild and unbroken colts and fillies, she believed, had excuses. They were the natural results of a complete lack of parental discipline and school training. They ran amuck, advertised by the press and applauded by the hawks who pounced upon their wallets. They were more to be pitied than condemned, far more foolish and ridiculous than decadent. They were not unique, either, or peculiar to their own country. Every nation possessed its “smart set,” its little group of men and women who were ripe for the lunatic asylum, and even the war and its iron tonic had failed to shock them into sanity. In her particularly sane way of looking at things, Alice saw all this, was proud to know that the majority of the people who formed American society were fine and sound and generous, and kept as much as possible out of the way of those others whose one object in life was to outrage the conventions. It was only when people began to tell her of seeing her husband and her friend about together night after night that she found herself wondering, with jealousy in her heart, how long her optimism would endure, because Gilbert had already shown her a foot of clay, and Joan was deliberately flying wild.
It was, at any rate, all to the good that Joan kept her promise and utterly refused to be turned by the pleadings and blandishments of Cannon and Hosack. They drove together to Palgrave’s elaborate house, a faithful replica of one of the famous Paris mansions in the Avenue Wagram and sat down to a little supper in Alice’s boudoir.
They made a curious picture, these two children, one just over twenty, the other under nineteen; and as they sat in that lofty room hung with French tapestries and furnished with the spindle-legged gilt chairs and tables of Louis XIV, they might have been playing, with all the gravity and imitative genius of little girls in a nursery, at being grown up.
While the servants moved discreetly about, Joan kept up a rattle of impersonalities, laughing at Cannon’s amazing mustache and Gargantuan furniture, enthusing wildly over Caruso’s once-in-a-century voice, throwing satire at Mrs. Cooper Jekyll’s confirmed belief in her divine right to queen it, and saying things that made Alice chuckle about the d’Oylys—that apparently ill-matched pair. She drank a glass of champagne with the air of a connoisseur and finally, having displayed an excellent appetite, mounted a cigarette into a long thin mother-of-pearl holder, lighted it and sank with a sigh into the room’s one comfortable chair.
“Gilbert gave me a cigarette holder like that,” said Alice.
“Yes? I think this comes from him,” said Joan. “A thoughtful person!”
That Joan was not quite sure from whom she received it annoyed Alice far more than if she had boasted of it as one of Gilbert’s numerous gifts. She needed no screwing up now to say what she had rather timidly brought this cool young slip of a thing there to discuss.
“Will you tell me about yourself and Gilbert?” she asked quietly. There was no need for Joan to act complete composure. She felt it. “What is there to tell, my dear?”
“I hope there isn’t anything—I mean anything that matters. But perhaps you don’t know that people have begun to talk about you, and I think you owe it to me to be perfectly frank.”
Even then it didn’t occur to Joan that there was anything serious in the business. “I’ll be as frank as the front page of The Times—‘All the news that’s fit to print,’” she said. “What do you want to know?”
Alice proved her courage. She drew up a chair, bent forward and came straight to the point. “Be honest with me, Joan, even if you have to hurt me. Gilbert is very handsome, and women throw themselves at him. I did, I suppose; but having won him and being still in my first year of marriage, I’m naturally jealous when he lets himself be drawn off by them. The women who have tried to take Gilbert away from me I didn’t know, and they owed me no friendship. But you’re different, and I can’t believe that you—”
Joan broke in with a peal of laughter. “Can’t you? Why not? I haven’t got wings on my shoulders. Isn’t everything fair in love and war?”
Alice drew back. She had many times been called prim and old-fashioned, especially at school, by Joan and others when men were talked about, and the glittering life that lay beyond the walls. Sophistication, to put it mildly, had been the order of the day in that temporary home of the young idea. But this calm declaration of disloyalty took her color away, and her breath. Here was honesty with a vengeance!
“Joan!” she cried. “Joan!” And she put up her hand as though to ward off an unbelievable thought.
In an instant Joan was on her feet with her arms around the shoulders of the best friend she had, whose face had gone as white as stone. “Oh, my dear,” she said, “I’m sorry. Forgive me. I didn’t mean that in the least, not in the very least. It was only one of my cheap flippancies, said just to amuse myself and shock you. Don’t you believe me?”
Tears came to Alice. She had had at least one utterly sleepless night and several days of mental anguish. She was one of the women who love too well. She confessed to these things, brokenly, and it came as a kind of shock to Joan to find some one taking things seriously and allowing herself to suffer.
“Why, Alice,” she said, “Gilbert means nothing to me. He’s a dear old thing; he’s awfully nice to look at; he sums things up in a way that makes me laugh; and he dances like a streak. But as to flirting with him or anything of that sort—why, my dear, he looks on me as a little boob from the country, and in my eyes he’s simply a man who carries a latchkey to amusement and can give me a good time. That’s true. I swear it.”
It was true, and Alice realized it, with immense relief. She dried her eyes and held Joan away from her at arm’s length and looked at her young, frank, intrepid face with puzzled admiration. It didn’t go with her determined trifling. “I shall always believe what you tell me, Joan,” she said. “You’ve taken a bigger load than you imagine off my heart—which is Gilbert’s. And now sit down again and be comfortable and let’s do what we used to do at school at night and talk about ourselves. We’ve both changed since those days, haven’t we?”
“Have we? I don’t think I have.” Joan took another cigarette and went back to her chair. Her small round shoulders looked very white against the black of a velvet cushion. If there was nothing boyish or unfeminine about her, there was certainly an indefinable appearance of being untouched, unawakened. She was the same girl who had been found by Martin that afternoon clean-cut against the sky—the determined individualist.
Alice sat in front of her on a low stool with her hands clasped round a knee. “What a queer mixture you are of—of town and country, Joany. You’re like a piece of honeysuckle playing at being an orchid.”
“That’s because I’m a kid,” said Joan. “The horrible hour will come when I shall be an orchid and try and palm myself off as honeysuckle, never fear.”
“Don’t you think marriage has changed you a little?” asked Alice. “It usually does. It changed me from an empty-headed little fool to a woman with oh, such a tremendous desire to be worthy of it.”
“Yes, but then you married for love.”
“Didn’t you, Joany?”
“I? Marry for love?” Joan waved her arm for joy at the idea.
Alice knew the story of the escape from old age. She also knew from the way in which Martin looked at Joan why he had given her his name and house. Here was her chance to get to the bottom of a constant puzzle. “You may not have married for love,” she said, “but of course you’re fond of Martin.”
Joan considered the matter. It might be a good thing to go into it now that there was an unexpected lull in the wild rush that she had made to get into life. There had been something rather erratic about Martin’s comings and goings during the last week. She hadn’t spoken to him since the night at the Ritz.
“Yes, I am fond of him,” she said. “That’s the word. As fond as I might be of a very nice, sound boy whom I’d known all my life.”
“Is that all?”
Joan made a series of smoke rings and watched them curl into the air. “Yes, that’s all,” she said.
Alice became even more interested and curious and puzzled. She held very serious views about marriage. “And are you happy with him?”
“I don’t know that I can be said to be happy with him,” said Joan. “I’m perfectly happy as things are.”
“Tell me how they are.” There was obviously something here that was far from right.
Joan was amused at her friend’s gravity. She had always been a responsible little person with very definite and old-fashioned views. “Well,” she said, “it’s a charming little story, really. I was the maiden who had to be rescued from the ugly castle, and Martin was the knight who performed the deed. And being a knight with a tremendous sense of convention and a castle of his own full of well-trained servants, it didn’t seem to him that he could give me the run of his house in the Paul and Virginia manner, which isn’t being done now; and so, like a little gentleman, he married me, or as I suppose you would put it, went through the form of marriage. It’s all part of the adventure that we started one afternoon on the edge of the woods. I call it the cool and common-sense romance of two very modern and civilized people.”
“I don’t think there’s any place in romance for such things as coolness and common sense,” said Alice warmly. “And as to there being two very modern and civilized people in your adventure, as you call it, that I doubt.”
Joan’s large brown eyes grew a little larger, and she looked at the enthusiastic girl in front of her with more interest. “Do you?” she asked. “Why?”
Alice got up. She was disturbed and worried. She had a great affection for Joan, and that boy was indeed a knight. “I saw Martin walking away from your house the night you dined with Gilbert at the Brevoort—I was told about that!—and there was something in his eyes that wasn’t the least bit cool. Also I rode in the Park with him one morning a week ago, and I thought he looked ill and haggard and—if you must know—starved. No one would say that you aren’t modern and civilized,—and those are tame words,—but if Martin were to come in now and make a clean breast of it, you’d be surprised to find how little he is of either of those things, if I know anything about him.”
“Then, my dear,” replied Joan, making a very special ring of smoke, “you know more about him than I do.”
Alice began to walk about. A form of marriage—that was the phrase that stuck in her mind. And here was a girl who was without a genuine friend in all that heartless town except herself, and a fine boy who needed one, she began to see, very badly. She, at any rate, and she thanked God for it, was properly married, and she owed it to friendship to make a try to put things right with these two.
“Joan, I believe I do,” she said. “I really believe I do, although I’ve only had one real talk with him. You’re terribly and awfully young, I know. You had a bad year with your grandfather and grandmother, and the reaction has made you wild and careless. But you’re not a girl who has been brought up behind a screen in a room lighted with one candle. You know what marriage means. There isn’t a book you haven’t read or a thing you haven’t talked over. And if you imagine that Martin is content to play Paul to your imitation Virginia, you’re wrong. Oh, Joan, you’re dangerously wrong.”
Settling into her chair and working her shoulders more comfortably into the cushion, Joan crossed one leg over the other and lighted another cigarette. “Go on,” she said with a tantalizing smile. “I love to hear you talk. It’s far more interesting than listening to Howard Cannon’s dark prophecies about the day after to-morrow and his gloomy rumblings about the writing on the wall. You stand for the unemancipated married woman. Don’t you?”
“Yes, I do,” said Alice quickly, her eyes gleaming. “I consider that a girl who lets a man marry her under false pretenses is a cheat.”
“A strong word, my dear!”
“But not too strong.”
“Wait a minute. Suppose she doesn’t love him. What then?”
“Then she oughtn’t to have married him.”
“Yes, but it may have suited her to marry him.”
“Then she should fulfill the bargain honestly and play the game according to the rules. However modern and civilized people are, they do that.”
Joan shrugged her round white shoulders and flicked her cigarette ash expertly into the china tray on the spindle-legged table at her elbow. She was quite unmoved. Alice had always taken it upon herself to lecture her about individualism—the enthusiastic little thing. “Dear old girl,” she said, “don’t you remember that I always make my own rules?”
“I know you do, but you can’t tell me that Martin wants to go by them—or that he’ll be able to remain a knight long, while you’re going by one set and he’s keen to go by another? Where will it end?”
“End? But why drag in the end when Martin and I are only at the beginning?”
Alice sat down again and bent forward and caught up Joan’s unoccupied hand. “Listen, dear,” she said with more than characteristic earnestness. “Last night I went with the Merrills to the Ziegfeld Follies, and I saw Martin there with a little white-faced girl with red lips and the golden hair that comes out of a bottle.”
“Good old Martin!” said Joan. “The devil you did!”
“Doesn’t that give you a jar?”
“Good heavens, no! If you’d peeked into the One-o’clock Club this morning at half past two, you would have seen me with a white-faced man with a red mustache and a kink in his hair that comes from a hot iron. Martin and I are young and giddy, and we’re on the round-about, and we’re hitting it up. Who cares?”
There was a little silence—and then Alice drew back, shaking her pretty neat head. “It won’t do, Joany,” she said, “it won’t do. I’ve heard you say ‘Who cares?’ loads of times and never seen anybody take you by the shoulders and shake you into caring. That’s why you go on saying it. But somebody always cares, Joany dear, and there’s not one thing that any of us can say or do that doesn’t react on some one else, either to hurt or bless. Martin Gray’s your knight. You said so. Don’t you be the one to turn his gleaming armor into common broadcloth—please, please don’t.”
Joan gave a little laugh and a little yawn and stretched herself like a boy and got up. “Who’d have thought it? It’s half-past twelve, and we’re both losing our much needed beauty sleep. I must really tear myself away.” She put her arm around Alice and kissed her. “The same dear little wise, responsible Alice who would like to put the earth into woolens with a mustard plaster on its chest. But it takes all sorts to make up a world, you know, and it would be rather drab without a few butterflies. Don’t throw bricks at me until I’ve fluttered a bit more, Ally. My colors won’t last long, and I know what old age means, better than most. If I were in love as you are, my man’s rules would be the ones I’d go by all the time; but I’m not in love, and I don’t want to be—yet; and I’m only a kid, and I think I have the right to my fling. This marriage of mine is just a part of the adventure that Martin and I plunged into as a great joke, and he knows it and he’s one of the best, and I’m grateful to him, believe me. Good night. God bless you!”
She stood for a moment on the top step to taste the air that was filled with the essence of youth. Across a sky as clear as crystal a series of young clouds were chasing each other, putting out the stars for a moment as they scurried playfully along. It was a joy to be alive and fit and careless. Summer was lying in wait for spring, and autumn would lay a withering hand upon summer, and winter with its crooked limbs and lack-luster eyes was waiting its inevitable turn.
“A short life and a merry one!” whispered Joan to the moon, throwing it a kiss.
A footman, sullen for want of sleep, opened the door of the limousine. Some one was sitting in the corner with his arms crossed over his chest.
“Marty! Is that you?”
“It’s all right,” said Gilbert Palgrave. “I’ve been playing patience for half an hour. I’m going to see you home.”