Chapter III The Second Lady-Help
‘The droop, the low cares of the mouth,
The trouble uncouth
’Twixt the brows, all that air one is fain
To put out of its pain.’
And for actually six months that home survived! After that the crumbling was to be expected, for some discerning man came along, and married the marvellous lady-help out of hand.
Mr. Cameron spent five pounds in the purchase of a pair of entrée dishes for a wedding-present, and was unhappy that he could so very inadequately reward her great services. But there was a curious air of buoyancy and relaxation observable in him the first day the house was free of her.
At tea he got The Master of Ballantrae out, and read boldly all through the meal, a thing he had not ventured to do for eighteen months. And out in the frozen shrubbery at midnight, with the Master and Mr. Henry thrusting at each other, he spilled the tea that Hermie passed him. When he saw the wide brown stain he had made on the table’s whiteness—although the ridiculous fancy pursued him that it was the Master’s life-blood smirching the snow—he looked up startled, full of apologies. But there was only Hermie’s childish face in front of him; and though she said, ‘Oh, papa!’ as became a president of the tea-tray, she looked away the next second to laugh at Roly, who had spread his bread with jam on both sides, and did not know how best to hold it. And Cameron felt so much a man and master of his fate once more, that he stretched right across the table to help himself to butter, instead of politely requesting the passing of it. For three months the household ran a merry course. Hermie, a bright little woman of eleven, begged her father to let her ‘keep house’ and give the orders to Lizzie, the very young general servant.
The father bent his thoughts five minutes to the problem; Miss Macintosh had been away now a fortnight, and everything seemed going along really delightfully. What need to break the sweet harmony of the days by getting in some person whose principles counted reading at table and spilling tea among the cardinal vices?
And Lizzie, the State girl, was at his elbow with a shining face. She was fifteen, she said—fifteen was real old! Now why should the master go getting in any more of them lady-helps, who did nothing but scold from morning to night? She, Lizzie, would undertake all there was to do in this place ‘on her head.’
Cameron smiled at the eager girls, and, while hardly daring to consent, put off for a further day the engagement of a successor to Miss Macintosh. And the three months ran gaily along, and still Hermie sat importantly at the head of the table, and still her father read, and still Roly spread his bread upon both sides.
There was always a good table—far better than either the mother or lady-help had kept.
For the family grocer had an alluring way of suggesting delicacies, when he came for his orders that certainly no mistress of eleven or handmaid of fifteen could withstand.
‘Almonds?’ he would say. ‘Very fine almonds this week, Miss Cameron—three pounds did you say—yes? And what about jam? I have it as low as fivepence a tin, but there is no knowing what cheap fruit these makers use.’
‘Oh,’ Hermie would say, ‘I must have very good jam, of course, or it might make my little sister ill! How much is good jam?’
‘There’s strawberry conserve, a shilling a tin,’ the man would say—‘pure fruit and pure sugar, boiled in silver saucepans.’
‘Silver saucepans! That couldn’t hurt Flossie! We will have six tins of that, please,’ the small house-woman would answer. Then there were biscuits; Miss Macintosh, frugal soul, only gave Wilgandra, when it came calling, coffee-biscuits at sevenpence a pound with its afternoon tea. Hermie regaled it upon macaroons at half a crown. Then Lizzie would have her say. What was the use of cooking meat and vegetables on washing-day, ironing-day, and Saturdays, she would say, when you could get them tinned from a grocer? So tins of tongue, and whitebait, and pressed meats, French peas, asparagus, and such, were added weekly to the order, the grocer sending to Sydney for the unusual things. ‘We are saving a lady-help’s wages,’ Hermie would say, ‘and it saves the butcher’s bills, so it is not extravagant a bit.’
It was not until the third month that the day of reckoning came. Then the grocer, grown a trifle anxious over his unusual bill, which no one was settling, ventured to accost Mr. Cameron one day on his verandah and present it.
‘No haste, of course,’ he said politely, ‘only as your good lady and Miss Macintosh always paid monthly, I thought you might not like it going on much longer.’
When he had bowed himself out, Mr. Cameron rubbed his suddenly troubled brow a moment. Money, bills! The thought had actually never crossed his mind all these three months! His wife first and then Miss Macintosh had always managed the finances of the family. Indeed, one of Mrs. Cameron’s injunctions to the lady-help had been, ‘When Mr. Cameron’s cheque for his quarter’s salary comes, please be sure to remind him to pay it into the bank.’ And Miss Macintosh had never failed to do so, nor to apply for the twelve pounds monthly for payment of the household bills.
He went into the dining-room and began to rummage helplessly about his writing-table. To save his life he could not recollect what had become of his last cheque, for there was a conviction on his mind that he had never paid it into his account.
Hermie was at the table, Mrs. Beeton’s cookery-book spread open before her; over her shoulders peeped the heads of Bartie and Roly, absorbed in the contemplation of the coloured plate picturing glorified blancmanges and jellies. For was not to-morrow Roly’s fifth birthday, for which great preparation must be made by the young mother of the house?
‘Children,’ said the father at last entreatingly, ‘come and help me; I have lost a very important envelope.’
For over an hour did that family search from one end of the house to the other. It was Lizzie’s happy thought that discovered it.
‘A long blue envelope, with no stamp on it and just printing instead—why, there was one like that in the kitchen drawer with the dinners on it,’ she said.
She rushed for it, and met her anxious master with it held triumphantly out.
The back of the envelope bore dinners for the week in Hermie’s round careful hand.
Mon.—Roast fowl, mashed potatoes, collyflower, pink jellie and gem cakes.
Tues.—Tong, blommange and strawberry jam, rainbow cake.
Wed.—Sardenes, current buns, yelow jelly and merangs.
Mr. Cameron thrust a trembling hand into the depths of it, and, to his exquisite relief, was able to draw out the cheque for his quarterly sixty pounds.
In danger of the kitchen fire, in danger of the dust-box, in danger of Roly’s passion for paper-tearing, in danger of all the wind-storms that had sprung up and torn raging through the place, in danger of all these for three months, and still safe!
The relief took the man back into the dining-room, responsibility for his family to the front for the third time in his life.
He ran through the bills with a sinking heart. Instead of twelve pounds a month that Miss Macintosh’s carefulness had made suffice, little Hermie had brought up the totals to twenty-eight—eighty-four pounds for the quarter, to be deducted from the sixty pounds that must also pay rent and clothes and many other things.
The child cried bitterly when he showed her what she had done. It had been delicious pleasure to her, this time of ordering and helping with the dinners. Delicious pleasure to see her father appreciating the changed meals as much as the boys—Cameron had quite a boyish appetite for good things, and Hermie’s brilliant menus had been delightful to him after a long course of Miss Macintosh’s boiled rhubarb puddings, treacle roly-polies, and milk sagos.
‘A first-rate little manager,’ he always called her, when he passed up his plate for more of the jelly, or more whitebait, or asparagus, and he recked even less than Bartie that the things were intrinsically more expensive than rhubarb or rice.
‘Oh, daddie, oh, daddie dear, I am so sorry!’ she said, awake at last to the sad truth that luxury must be paid for, cash down, and was a dear commodity. And her eyes streamed, and her little chest heaved to such an extent that he had to put the bills aside and comfort her affliction, and explain to her that he was scolding himself, not her.
‘But I am eleven,’ she kept repeating sadly, ‘eleven, papa. I ought to have known.’
There rang at the door a few minutes later the master of the boys’ school to which Bartie had just been sent. Hermie, her mother’s conscientiousness strong in her, had always gone off to her school each day, though, in truth, so absorbed was she by her housekeeping delights that she was a very ill scholar nowadays.
But Bartie, plain unalloyed boy, had wearied suddenly of tuition, and found a pleasant fishing-ground in a secluded creek. There was no one to tell him to go to school, it was against nature that he should betake himself to servitude every day of his own accord, so, towards the end of the quarter, it fell out that he fished two days of the week and studied three, even at times reversing that order of things. In restitution he took canings, his hands were horny, the touch of the master not over heavy.
But now the matter was before his father, and the master was returning home, the consciousness of duty done lifting his head.
The father’s blue eye flashed with strange fire as he looked at the boy.
‘Is my son a thief,’ he said, ‘that he should treat me so? Or is it he despises me because I leave him unwatched and free?’
With that he strode out of the room, out of the house; Bart, his conscience quick once more and in agony, watched him walking, house-coat on and no hat, down the main street of the township and up, up, never resting, to the top of the great hill the other side they call the Jib.
No further word of the matter was ever said till the next Christmas, when the boy marched in with the year’s prize for punctuality under his arm. Then Cameron shook hands with him.
‘I like a man of honour,’ he said. But the two events together, the grocer’s bill and the master’s call, decided the father he must enter into submission and have another lady-help, for the children’s sake.
How to obtain one? He made inquiries about Wilgandra, but the class of people from whom he sought to take one were of the mind that prevails in many of the country towns and bush settlements. They would rather starve than serve—at all events where they were known. Now and again a self-respecting intelligent girl broke away from her life and went off with her trunk to find service in Sydney.
But, for the most part, the daughters of a house up to the number of seven, or even ten, stayed under the cramped roof-tree of their fathers, and led an unoccupied, sheepish existence, till marriage or death bore them off to other homes.
So in despair Cameron wrote off to a Sydney registry office, and asked the manageress to send him a lady. Just before he closed the letter the happy freedom of the last three months led him to add a postscript, ‘I should like the lady you select to be of not too managing a disposition—gentle and pleasant.’
The registry office keeper rubbed her hands; here surely at last was a chance to dispose of Miss Browne—Miss Browne, who was ever on the books, who was sent off to a situation one week, and came back with red eyes and a hopeless expression the next, dismissed incontinently as incapable.
The registry office keeper turned up the town Wilgandra in her railway time-table.
Three hundred and seventy-three miles away! Surely at such a distance, especially as the employer was paying the expensive fare, Miss Browne might be regarded as settled for a space of three months!
Mr. Cameron had no complaint to make of his new lady-help on the score of being of a managing disposition. She was gentleness itself—that kind of deprecating gentleness that makes the world feel uncomfortable. She tried pitifully hard to be pleasant—pleasant and cheerful. She worked from earliest morning to late at night, and accomplished about as much as Hermie could in two hours. It took her nerveless fingers nearly a quarter of an hour to sew on a waistcoat button, and in little more than a quarter of an hour the button would have tumbled off again.
Lizzie seldom trusted her to cook anything; when she did so the poor lady invariably emerged from the kitchen with her hands burnt in several places, sparks in her eyes, the front width of her dress scorched, her hair singed, and her poor frail body so utterly exhausted, the family would insist upon her instant retirement to bed.
Nobody knew what the woman’s life had been, where had gone the vigour, the energy, the graces that should still have been hers, for her years were barely thirty-five.
A crushing sorrow, disappointment on the heel of disappointment, loneliness, or perhaps only a grey life full of petty cares passed in a scorching, withering climate—one or all of these things had dried the sap out of her, and left of what might have been a gracious creature, radiating pleasure and comfort, only the rags and bones of womanhood.
The Camerons suffered her patiently for three long months; then the father gathered his courage up in both hands, closed his ears to the pity that clamoured at his heart, and told her gently enough that she must go.
She threw up her fluttering hands and sank on the sofa—in her eyes the piteous look of amaze and grief that your fireside dog would wear if you took a sudden knife to him. So kind had the family been, so patient, the poor creature had told herself exultingly that they were satisfied, even pleased with her, and had hugged the novel, delicious thought to sleep with her for the last two months.
She asked shakingly what she had done.
‘Nothing, nothing at all,’ Cameron reassured her eagerly; ‘it is merely, merely I can see you are not strong enough for such a hard place as mine.’
‘A hard place!’ she cried, and looked at him dazed. ‘Why, there are only five of you, and Lizzie to do all the rough work! I’ve been where there were ten, and done the washing and everything. I’ve been where there were nine, and had to chop the wood and draw the water myself. I’ve been mother’s help and had to carry twin babies miles in the sun. I’ve been where the children pinched and scratched me. I’ve been at places where I rose at half-past four, and found my way to bed at eleven. And in none have I ever given notice myself. A hard place! Dear heart!’
‘My dear Miss Browne,’ Cameron said, and such was the fluent nature of the man that his eyes were filled, and he had no idea that he lied, ‘it was solely for the sake of your health I spoke. You look so delicate. If you think the duties are not too heavy, why, I shall be most heartily obliged to you if you will stay with us indefinitely.’
Then he went away to seek his children, to tell them her story, and beg their tenderest patience.